Friday, May 05, 2006
Though I haven't been posting regularly, my heart is. You see, our family has been under a bit of stress the past week or so, and it's not letting up yet. I know the Lord doesn't give us more than we can handle, but I feel I'm on the border.
Two weeks ago I got a phone call regarding my father. He has an anyrism (?) below his heart and above the kidney. Then during a test they found 2 arteries are very clogged, hence two separate surgeries. My dad has never been in the hospital since the day he was born, that I know of. They are concerned because of his overall health (overweight, excessive alcohol use, and difficulty breathing..oh and he smokes ta boot!) His surgery may be next week some time, for reasons I can not explain here I have chosen not to be there, but am struggling terribly with the possibility of the loss. Hmmm, Let Go and Let God...
Last week we got a phone call that my husband's father needed open heart surgery...pronto! So last Tuesday he flew out to New Mexico to be with his mom & dad. His sister is already there and his brother flew in too. The surgery went well, we just wish he would quite disconnecting things thinking he can leave now. This morning he called to say his mother has been sick, she wasn't even able to go to the hospital, nerves I think.
I am glad I can be here for my husband but all this is weighing on me. Both dad's, though very different relationships, open heart surgery in two different states. I am reminded by a friend this too will pass, but in the mean time I am keeping my self so busy I feel I'm running in circles.
Okay, enough of that. I try to remain positive here, but thought I should let friends know what is going on. Just wanted to rant a bit.
I wish you a peaceful night.